So pleased with myself. I actually ran 4 miles today. Not my best time (I once did 5 miles in 46 minutes) but it is a start. I have about 16 weeks before the 1/2 marathon. Thankfully my goal this time is just to finish.
Later my plan (when I have the courage) is show some before and after pics. 2003 when I was over 300 pounds. 2006 in a speedo and 2007 when I was at what I consider my peak. I will spare people where I am now.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Toe in the water
Well, I went to respond to a post and the next thing I knew I have started a blog. Kind of surreal. I have read some of the ones here and realize that most of them started out not knowing what they were doing so I guess I am track there.
So to begin with I guess I should describe myself. I am a closeted gay male who is trying to get up the courage to come out to my wife and family. I stumbled on to blogs that describe similiar trips. No two are the same. The do however share similiar features. Fear being the main one. I have to say, I am a huge coward. I have known I was gay for at least 40 years and been married for well over 30 years. Let me correct that. Although I knew, I did deny it. 20 years ago I had a therapist tell m that I could "fix" it. Laughable now. He had me put a rubber band on my wrist and snap it whenever I had gay thoughts. Well I was convinced I could change. I had a regular F*** buddy at the time and told him that we couldn't do that anymore. Thankfully, he accepted that and we stayed friends. Thanks to the internet, I have stuck up conversations/friendships with many people all over the world. My closest two advise against coming out. They point out I have a lot to lose. They are right in a financial sense. But in a mental sense, I think I may have a lot to gain. Any thoughts along those lines will be appreciated. Wish me luck.
Skier
So to begin with I guess I should describe myself. I am a closeted gay male who is trying to get up the courage to come out to my wife and family. I stumbled on to blogs that describe similiar trips. No two are the same. The do however share similiar features. Fear being the main one. I have to say, I am a huge coward. I have known I was gay for at least 40 years and been married for well over 30 years. Let me correct that. Although I knew, I did deny it. 20 years ago I had a therapist tell m that I could "fix" it. Laughable now. He had me put a rubber band on my wrist and snap it whenever I had gay thoughts. Well I was convinced I could change. I had a regular F*** buddy at the time and told him that we couldn't do that anymore. Thankfully, he accepted that and we stayed friends. Thanks to the internet, I have stuck up conversations/friendships with many people all over the world. My closest two advise against coming out. They point out I have a lot to lose. They are right in a financial sense. But in a mental sense, I think I may have a lot to gain. Any thoughts along those lines will be appreciated. Wish me luck.
Skier
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