Paradise can be lonely

Well I am on probably one of my last vacations with my wife.  Another couple is joining us in beautiful Aruba.  And it is truly a beautiful place.  Unfortunately it is also romantic.   really want to lay out on the beach and be able to touch skin.  Kiss.  And most of all a cuddle now and then.  It is strange to me.  I have been living in a sexless relationship for awhile now and it hasn't really been that bad.  Until I realized that not only am I gay, but that I owe it to myself to have sex.  Right now, the other three are down at the pool and I am up here in the room on a damn computer putting my thoughts down. 

The other night the four of us were out on the town in NYC and after a couple of drinks it was all I could do not to grab my buddy.  Think that might have put a damper on trip.  LOL.  No, he isn't that kind of buddy.  Too bad.  On the other hand, my new boyfriend (still looks strange to see in print) is NOT here.  And I so wish he was.  He makes me laugh and while that is a cliche, it is also a fact we just feel better when we laugh.  And I know we couldn't actually do like the pic here, it sure is on my mind.

Johan's gallery of Beautiful men

Yep, that is exactly what him and I should be doing.  Alas, it will have to wait for awhile.  And that setting is so similiar to where I am staying.

Can't you just see the two of us there?  Okay, neither one of us looks as good as those two do.  But I don't care.










I guess feeling the way I do right now, I had better not have any alcohol.  There is plenty of eye candy here after all.  Yesterday there were at least 3 DILF's and one very hot guy (gay?) in a blue bikini that just barely covered the subject. 

Funny, after typing all this, I do feel a bit better.  I think I will call my friend, fix a drink and join the others by the pool.  Sunglasses to hide my looking.  LOL  Take care all.